Seeing the one You Love from Afar

Hi friends and enemies! It’s me again. Please bare with me if this month, I’ve written so many blogs. Peace!
I’m now going to write again, about my life as a boy, loving a girl.
Have you ever been in love? Have you ever been so desperate to see her, talk to her, hold her with your arms and tell her you love her from the bottom of your heart? Yes, I’ve tried it and I desperately have been so in love. So in love that I felt I could die for her.
It all started during first year high school (to all UP students just guess who she is). It was the first day of classes when I first met her. I still remember that very scenario; she was standing by the door, wearing a jacket. When I saw her, as if I was struck by lightning! She was so pretty I wanted to grab her and talk to her, but I thought, who am I to talk to her when weren’t even still friends during that time. We were completely strangers to each other.
After that, I kept thinking about her. But after the many things we did that day, I just simply forgot about her.
The third week of high school came. Many students were now joining clubs and other extra curricular activities. As for me, I joined the UPSTAGE or the University of the Philippines Theater Arts Guild for Education. This club involves theater activities, many forms of dancing, and singing. But it specialized in ethnic dances and presentation as to what the club’s adviser, Ms. Ligaya Rabago Visaya’s theme is.
Before joining the club, of course we still have to audition. Many first years joined the audition. Including the VIP Delegates, a social group in our section which I am in.
My classmates, or should I say group mates sang, danced, acted and impersonated our teachers. And I, the king of impersonators in our school, impersonated some of my teachers including the club’s adviser.
Then out of the blue, I saw her, the girl I was so amazed with. I was again as if struck by lightning. What she did was, she sang. She sang a very familiar song which I recognized as the song, Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne. From then on, I had a crush on her. I thought about her always. And she just couldn’t get out of my mind.
November came, as for many universities, intramurals month. I still remembered that very day, Thursday, November 23, 2006 the whole world fell upon me and I was as if, I couldn’t breathe when I heard the news that the very person I like was now the girlfriend of my previous best friend.
There were no nights I wouldn’t think of her and there were no days I wouldn’t suffer of depression. I didn’t actually know why but it’s as if she was a very dear person to me, it was as if, I fell in love!
December 22, 2006 was a day I couldn’t forget. It was the eve before their (well you know who) monsary. For 2 hours I cried and cried. I just stayed in my romm remembering the days when we were still friends, talking to each other, hanging-out and walking to many places near our school like the College Department in our school.
The following days worsened. Her boyfriend knew I had a crush on her, so I couldn’t dare talk to her or simply go near her. I wouldn’t dare go near a person whose boyfriend is so angry at me and has a very feared group. But I told myself, “how could you be a coward, if you love her you should fight for it”! But I just didn’t have the strength to do it.
It feels very odd seeing both of them holding hands, talking to each other and just having fun. It’s like I’m going to burst! During break I would sit at our bench and watch her from there, she would be inside her room by then. I would just feel sad be depressed and sometimes cry.
I’m not very lucky when it comes to love, but somehow and in someway, I’m going to be lucky at it and I hope I could find the person who would love me truly too. I’ve learned something from this “ ‘wag hanapin ang pag-ibig, ito’y darating” as a famous OPM song goes.